8 mths after..1yrs anniversary

8 mths has past..She's still ard..lol..Daa slmt 1 yr..I still miss her a lot..Hmm typing this while hearing bruno mars ''Just the way you are''..lawa jgk gurl die..hmm..ok2 back 2 the topic..Was forced to do this..arghh..what's on my mind huh?hmm..skool,you,money issues..etc.But manageable laa..Seems dat i miss you much2 more laa..how2?thinkin back our love journry over this 1 yr was nt dat smooth.But we overcame it..

I'm sorry cuz i always make u cry abt stupid2 things..I'm just confused as to why you are jealous abt a 62 yr old man..aND not wanting to be no. 2 n all.I have nvr made u feel as if your'e no .2,3 o 100..There was a time dat i was feelin very down bcoz of wat was happening in my life n then came ''Superstar''..He thought me abt repect..luv..and anything in life is achievable if u belive in it..Why i respect him so much?Let's see..a man who started as a bus conductor n became a megastar..but nvr once have i seen him using his fame for his own good..nVR have i read him being in any scandals and all..dats why he is my role model..

Sometimes i just dunnoe hw i am suppose to comfort you on things like this..He is an inspiration 2 me but you are my heart..Hw cn you compare that?I just hope you understand dat at upon a time when i needed a male figure in my life..he was there..If i wanted,i could become wasted drinking n smoking..Because i wanted to rebel after wat my dad has done to my family.But rajni taught me whatever happens..life must go on..What''ll happen 2 my mom n siblings then?Dun tell me i just hav 2 abandon them just bcoz i freaking despise my dad..

Talking is cheap 4 me..but if u take the time..2 watch one of his movies n read up abt the guy..I think he is more of a human being than any one of us..He gives half his pay to the poor..He nvr wear stylish clothes wen he is out in public..Just a haggard old man dat only spents time with his family n religion..I am sad sometimes when you said dat bein no 2 at all hurts u cuz he's no 1..I just hope dat this won't affect our relationship..dun be too paranoid syg..If we are fated,we are fated..I hav nvr prevent u frm mitin people cuz u r still young..I still nid 2 further my studies n all..n i really2 tink dats its gonna take a toll on me 1 dae..

I wish too see you everyday..but i oso nid 2 tink abt my mum once in a while..I wish 2 go out with u everyday.but i seriously nid to cut down on my calories..I'm putting on too much weight..Give me time..I'm nt running away frm u..just dat i nid 2 get myself fit..My clothes are all 2 tight..lol.Hope you be strong cuz 4 me..I'm weak whenever you are..U r my pillar of strength..support me n i''ll always stay strong..I love you..ciao

the long ride

We took a bus frm cck int 2 bugis..4got wat no it was..Sat rite at the back..like normal always bein cheeky with her..At one point she mentioned abt givin me a tight slap cuz i gav her dat look..thinkin it was a joke,i asked her to do it..Who knew?she did it n i didn't wanted 2 look at her at all..Angry?No cuz I missed seein her big eyes whenever she's sad..hehe..Am i bad?hmm..i guess so..but it was an act laa.

We went 2 find a gud place 2 eat..Raffles hosp..nahh..Zamzam..noooooooo..Her dad has some group there....hehe..In the end,saw this ayam penyet place..the workers were both chinese..mybe baba laa..Macha called so i had 2 tell her 2 truth cuz dat idiot was like takin his time even i was like bored 2 wait..So i told her 2 act suprised..hehe..wat 2 do?boifwen big actor..hehe..so we ordered ayam penyet n gado2..ok laa..but the rice..nk diet pun susah..Macha came with his bro n tried 2 suprised her..hehe..We enjoyed the food n i even ordered extra rice..

Macha initially wanted 2 buy some polos..So we went 2 bugis 2 walk ard 2 find him dat polo..Den we went 2 bugis st...lookin at the watch it was lookin like it was goin 2 b late..We took bus 197..all the way 2 bedok..I will miss her so much cuz i had 2 train bt i hope she wud understand....Saw her take the bus n i went to the mrt station..went back 2 hm n continued 2 msn with my syg...hehe bt will c her soon..

The Wait

Woke up early tinkin dat i'm gonna suprise my syg by taking her 2 watch avatar.Earlier on she was too tired tinkin dat we''ll be mitin each other ard 9-10..so i decided 2 try my luck n go straight 2 lot 1 at cck n buy it myself even though it was alr 11 plus.Wen i finally reached lot 1,i had 2 withdraw money n had 2 go all the way down..N damn was it a long q...after withdrawing,ran up straight..the shaw movie was on the 5th floor..so wen i finally reached the place..was so lucky laa cuz the seat dat i wanted online was still available..so was so hapi dat i nearly went down the escalator dat is goin up..n damn there were people lookin..paisehhh..

Took the mrt back 2 jurong east cuz i planned 2 mit her there..it was 12 n the movie was at 2...plenty of time i initially thought.Kept calling her but her reply was otw so no prob...it was alr 1 plus n i was like so pissed off...kept calling but couldn't get thru..wen she finally came it was like about 0120..Was trying 2 take deep breaths 2 control my temper,,she took 1 end of the train n i took the other..Wen we reached cck,passed her my psp n it just slipped her hand

Dat was it,took the parts n moved off..till nw,it can't put the battery cover 4 the psp back..Lookin at her i was like so angry,but i controlled my anger..initially wanted 2 hav ameal but i tink she was sumhow scared laa..hehe..so i asked her 2 wait 4 me outside the movie theatre while i go down 2 grab something.wen 2 ntuc n bought 4 plain water bottle cus it was like 65 cents 4 2...n 2 packets of jackfruit chips...thinkin this is nt enuf..bought 2 old chang kee puff so we cud fill our stomach..was angry but i was concern abt her health..went up n tried 2 stuff evritin..luckily it fitted n she was like carrying a big bag..took our 3d specs n we wen in 2 the movie theatre..the seat 2 me like was so cramped n our seat was like in the middle..

By then i was coolin off a bit,tried 2 talked 2 her..The movie started n still remembered my 4 eyes aliens beside cuz she had 2 wear the spes on top of her own..the movie was abt this grp of humans who wnted the natural sources of this blu alien race n this man had 2 take the body of the avatar n tried 2 b 1 one them n convince them 2 move frm their habitat..it was gud but a bit draggy..in betw,we were like eatin the chips n she was like huggin my hands so tight..a bit cramp laa my hand but i loved it..hehe..in betw i was msgin macha cuz we wanted 2 suprise her...the movie ende ard 5..damn it was so tiring n i told her dat i wanted 2 eat at bugis..the place whe i planned 2 mit macha..wat happened there?was she shocked?dat is 2 b continued on my next edition of the long trip 2 bugis...hmmmm

6 moNths 6 times??????

31/12/09...5 mins b4 countdown..she called..we were like small kids..so happy 2 b counting down 2gether as a couple..She on the other hand was waiting for her doublecheese burger 2 arrive cuz it wud b like her 1st food ever 4 2010..1/2 a min 2 go n she was like screaming so happily..5,4,3,2,1..Hepi 2010 sygggg...weeeeee..heehe..we were like so hepiii..sadly,her burger came a bit late..hehe...

After that,we discussed about the movie of the century 'avatar'..luckily i read a news article abt the best glassses 2 watch the 3d version...we were checking all the seatings available online..so we decided 2 watch it but in the morning she called saying dat she was so tired cuz i woke her up at ard 9.So i decided 2 cancel our plan but did we????????wait 4 part 2..THE WAIT..MIUAHAHAAA

Part 2..the longg tripp on the BUS!!!!!

Sorry 4 the late entry..hmm where was i?ohh ya,the bus..It was so damn crowded on the bus..When i had the opportunity 2 sit with her on the bus..I told her dat i was tired.She took my left hand n started massaging me with her smooth/rough hands..Ya2..Tangan uat keje kann???We talked abt so many things..Mostly abt her school n hw she was so stressed up using photoshop..

She then talked abt this production she's helpin out..N she's goin 2 b home late..But the worst part is 4 us nt mitin 4 ard 3 wiks..Haiss..whateva it is,it's a sacrifice dats worth it..Do a gud job aites?Wen we reached BEDOK int,she gav me tis gift box n said dats sumting dat she wants me 2 have..I guessed it correctly wen she said i cn use it with the bottled water..A cup but dat wasn't the suprise..

Wen i gt home n took a bathe after dat,I opened the gift n saw a huge mug..hmm,bein sarcastic huh?Bluek..On top there's a note saying dat she hopes i like the present..I luv it sooo much dat till nw i dun have the heart 2 use it..hehe..bt i promise dat i''ll use it asap..Whatever happens..I promise i won't stop loviin..So hw cud i 4get u just like dat?heee..n 4 the cubit thingy..bluekkkk tk dpt..luvvvv u..tc aites

I feel ur warmth n i luv it

Went back home from werk in the murning..Had a bath n watched some tv b4 dozing off..wen i eventually woke up it was 3pm..omg..promised 2 mit her at 4pm..no worry..bathed..changed n rushed out..reached ct hall ard 0410..bt she told me her course ended ard 330..wen i arrived,she was still otw..n the weather was so damn hott..aiyoo..she arrived a few mins later with her fren accompanying her..Bt still u do look like a student frm a malaysian university.hehe..

Initially wanted 2 eat zam2 cuz i was so damnn hungry but she was afraid 2 c her brother's frens over there..so had 2 eat at the banquet at raffles hospital..had 2 walk some distance but nt once did she complained..Wenn we reached there..she bought her yong tau foo n i bought my chix rice with add rice..kenyanggg..Den we decided 2 walk ard bugis shopping ctr..her eyes realli glittered lookin at hoz bags..hehe...

We entered a bookshop cuz she initially wanted 2 buy tis book 4 me but it was sure expensive wen she saw the price..Read the book n it was filled with all the mushy stuffs..hehe..then wanted 2 watch movies bt she didn't brought much.I decided 2 go to the library..but wen we arrived it was closed..aiyo..deepavali laa..so decided 2 juz sit on the bus with her..bought a big bottle of drink n gt on bus 197..wat happened in the bus?to be continued 2moro..hehehe

What????So fast arh?

Today went out straight 2 jp with mum n sis 2 do some grocery shopping..Sumore straight after work..Arrived at jp an hr later..Mum wanted 2 eat prata..Skali,So expensive..Fed up..But just eat laa..Hmm was thinking of suprising her but was worried that she wud stay behind 2 help her frens.So told her Whether she wanted 2 mit cuz she sent me a msg saying dat she couldn't slip peacefully at nite..Wanted me 2 ''bobokkan'' her..She was reluctant but i was hesitant..She gave in..

Went out ard 1530..N reached there ard 1620..Waited 4 a while cuz she was alr on the way..When she arrived,was planning 2 watch a movie bt decided 2 save our money..So where did we go?U guess it ''BEDOK''..all the way she wanted 2 slip..So decided 2 massaged her hands..She didn't want me 2 do it at first..Dunnoe lahh..was fed up laa..but then she was ok..Rested near my shoulder n dozed off..Damn she look so beautiful..shud have kissed her,huh?haha..jkjk..Won't do dat laa..

Strangely,I felt we reached Bedok earlier than possible..Wanted 2 go to the library 2 watch a movie on her laptop but she was tired n wanted 2 go home..Hais..didn't had the mood 2 eat also even though was hungry at dat time..Walked all the way to her bus queue..both feelin damn moody.Her bus arrived but she decided 2 chill 4 a while..Dats whe we chill most of the time kn??I had 2 be the one nagging again..She was feelin so down..Had 2 give the stubborn gurl a good lecture.Dunnoe whether she was paying attention ke tk.Sumting happened dat shocked me,her lil sis hop down the bus..Alamak kecohh laa beb..hehe..

Luckily her sis was ok..Her bus arrived..She wanted 2 wait 4 my bus but i told her to go ahead so dat she cud accompany her sis..Tk halau..tkt u letih..i too hop on the bus n nearly overshot but by miraculously woke up just like dat at my bus stop..wahh lucky...went back n changed...went for a run..hais sure fail laa ippt..went back n ate a heavy dinner..Remember on the bus u kept askin me why bother comin frm woodlands 2 bedok just 2 sent her back n go home straightaway?Cuz i said dat wen u nid me..I''ll try my best 2 be there with u..I''ll try 2 hold on to my promise..SOrry guys..no pic..dats all folks

To my dearest lina khairiyah..