8 mths has past..She's still ard..lol..Daa slmt 1 yr..I still miss her a lot..Hmm typing this while hearing bruno mars ''Just the way you are''..lawa jgk gurl die..hmm..ok2 back 2 the topic..Was forced to do this..arghh..what's on my mind huh?hmm..skool,you,money issues..etc.But manageable laa..Seems dat i miss you much2 more laa..how2?thinkin back our love journry over this 1 yr was nt dat smooth.But we overcame it..
I'm sorry cuz i always make u cry abt stupid2 things..I'm just confused as to why you are jealous abt a 62 yr old man..aND not wanting to be no. 2 n all.I have nvr made u feel as if your'e no .2,3 o 100..There was a time dat i was feelin very down bcoz of wat was happening in my life n then came ''Superstar''..He thought me abt repect..luv..and anything in life is achievable if u belive in it..Why i respect him so much?Let's see..a man who started as a bus conductor n became a megastar..but nvr once have i seen him using his fame for his own good..nVR have i read him being in any scandals and all..dats why he is my role model..
Sometimes i just dunnoe hw i am suppose to comfort you on things like this..He is an inspiration 2 me but you are my heart..Hw cn you compare that?I just hope you understand dat at upon a time when i needed a male figure in my life..he was there..If i wanted,i could become wasted drinking n smoking..Because i wanted to rebel after wat my dad has done to my family.But rajni taught me whatever happens..life must go on..What''ll happen 2 my mom n siblings then?Dun tell me i just hav 2 abandon them just bcoz i freaking despise my dad..
Talking is cheap 4 me..but if u take the time..2 watch one of his movies n read up abt the guy..I think he is more of a human being than any one of us..He gives half his pay to the poor..He nvr wear stylish clothes wen he is out in public..Just a haggard old man dat only spents time with his family n religion..I am sad sometimes when you said dat bein no 2 at all hurts u cuz he's no 1..I just hope dat this won't affect our relationship..dun be too paranoid syg..If we are fated,we are fated..I hav nvr prevent u frm mitin people cuz u r still young..I still nid 2 further my studies n all..n i really2 tink dats its gonna take a toll on me 1 dae..
I wish too see you everyday..but i oso nid 2 tink abt my mum once in a while..I wish 2 go out with u everyday.but i seriously nid to cut down on my calories..I'm putting on too much weight..Give me time..I'm nt running away frm u..just dat i nid 2 get myself fit..My clothes are all 2 tight..lol.Hope you be strong cuz 4 me..I'm weak whenever you are..U r my pillar of strength..support me n i''ll always stay strong..I love you..ciao
